Lets Make A Toast...To the Rebelution

In the past couple of days, friends and acquaintances alike have been making the most heart-wrenching but sometimes inspiring or even profound postings on facebook all relating to matters of the heart; this recent upsurge in the need to express one's inner turmoil really got me to thinking...

Have you ever met someone who made such an impact on your life that it was in a word...inexplicable?

Have you ever opened up to someone so much that in their presence you are invariably naked...no pretenses, no denials, no boundaries?

Have you ever loved someone so unconditionally that you explain away their short-comings, embrace their faults and forget their transgressions simply because you need to?

Did it scare you?

It scares me...scares me that one can invest so much into another that the other is vested with such influence...control....power that without them, there is nothing to salvage. But what can you do...Put up boundaries? Avoid situations? Keep them at a distance? Be cautious?

But what about the possibility that in an attempt at self-preservation one may in effect rob oneself of the opportunity to reach utopia...which I personally identify with the point at which one loves and is loved not for whom one is thought to be, or desired to become but just for who one truly is.

As the saying goes it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all...but what if loving means losing oneself? Anything worth having is hard...but how much is too much?

On the hand, if you died tomorrow, have you truly lived? What would you change? Would you float between worlds wondering "what if?"...or "maybe I should have..."..."what would have happened if..."

Right now the msn nic of a new friend of mine says something to the effect of "sometimes you put up walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down". Food for thought...

Is playing it safe really all it is cracked up to be? Or is the fact that great gains necessarily involve great risk your guiding light...If you had a chance at a couple months or even weeks of unrestrained happiness would it be wise to pass it up based on logic, practicalities or pessimism alone?

For me, I have first hand knowledge that life is short and often cruel...I want to live each day like its my last, love like I have never been hurt and laugh like I have never shed a tear...I do not wish to live a life stifled by fear of the unknown or haunted by the ghosts of others...and if that is illogical, irrational or just plain stupid, who wants to move with the masses when you could challenge the status quo...

I call it a revolution...rather a rebelution...a rebelution of the heart!

Raise your glasses people...here is to living the life you love and loving the life you live...here is to you!